Mau Cheung

Just work on..

2008-07-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

When we look back at the past, knowing what we know now, we often find it difficult to understand how we made the mistakes we made. This is because once we learn new information, it is nearly impossible to reenter the headspace we were in before we learned that information. Our personal pasts are full of mistakes we can't believe we made. We did things then that we would never do now, and this is precisely because we have information now that we didn't have, or weren't able to access, then.

Our collective human past sometimes reads like a document on what not to do. In many ways, this is exactly as it should be. We learn from living and having experiences. It is from these past actions that we
garnered the information that guides us to live differently now. Just so, in our personal lives, we probably had to have a few unsuccessful
relationships ,works or jobs, learning about our negative tendencies through them, in order to gain the wisdom we have now.

In order to live more peacefully with the past, it helps to remember
that once we know better, we tend to do better. Prior to knowing, we
generally do our best, and while it's true that from the perspective of the present, our best doesn't always seem good enough, we can at least give our past selves the benefit of the doubt. We did our best with what knowledge we had. Beyond this, we serve the greater good most effectively by not dwelling on the past, instead reigning our energy and knowledge into our present actions. It is here, in this moment, that we create our reality and ourselves anew, with our current knowledge and information.

My aim for this holiday

2007-12-03T02:33:00.000+08:00

I want to go fishing.

Beetle and I

2007-11-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

A minute before this I received a scolding from my Mum. Reason being? I caught a beetle and was fascinated by its appearance so brought it to her, half hoping that she'll be equally interested in it but I was wrong. She dislikes insect and that's what i always mis-interpreted it as 'she dislikes Cockroaches only'. The worst thing comes when the beetle starts to fly off in front of her. Awww... I guess i don't have to go further from here yea? Screaming was all she did. Haha, guess that I've scared the daylight out of her.

Didn't expect myself at a age of 18 to get scoldings just because of this kiddy reason. But well, never mind, my bet =)

I was a good boy today. I helped her mopped the floor and err..also commented her cooking was good! Ha! Surprisingly when i lend her a hand today, i felt like I'm back to the olden days. It's the feeling when i was in my Pri sch, where my bro and I usually got fooled to do housework But this time round, it's done at my own will and i guess that really marks the difference in ago gap. To lighten our mums' workload, who wouldn't want to do so?

Went back to school for maths tutorial in the morning and band practise in the afternoon. Hrmx. JJC's band is seriously becoming a girls' band! Gosh! Imagine, I was the only male player sitting among couple of the other female players today! It's like... What happened?!! Their topic revolves around girl stuffs and for a moment i felt like I'm the only guy on earth. Argh. Anyway, I learned MUSIC THEORY today and it's like so boring that half of my mind has already switched off even before they started teaching. LOL. Failure huh.

Alright, nothing exciting installed for me this holiday except the trip back to HK in Dec. Yup, I'll look forward to it =)

Presenting to you my new pet...!!

Sipei: Yeayea! I'm better now, thanks =)
Catherine: Yea, being student is just a little part of my life but the rest of my life very much depend on it. There goes my future if i screw up my studies. Haha. Well, I'll try my best to achieve good results and make sure i'll be able to travel around the world one day. Oh, will you be free this coming Dec? I may be going back to Hk so do keep some time off from your work for me yea? Lols.
Jeanie: Come on, dont make it sound as if I'm a pessimist yea! Haha. Anyway, thanks for your concern la, I appreciate it. Thanks =)
Goddess: Lol, so weird, I cant believe I'm actually addressing the goddess here. so bhb. K, slow snail, being human, we sometimes would lose control of our emotions and we're vulnerable to emotional change. But well! I'll take your advise yea? Haha. OMG. Why do I sound so formal? LOL. Let's make some NOISE!! AHHHHHHHH!! =D

It's nature or nuture?

2007-10-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sick and tired of life.
Why do i feel so lonely now? Not trying to act emo but I'm just trying to express how I'm feeling right now. I'm starting to think that I'm an introvert. They once said JC is the most hectic and has the greater chance of widering our social circle but that's not the case for me. In fact, i cant click well with my schoolmates, a lot of time I've to take my own initiative to catch up with them or even to talk them. When it comes to jokes, i always find myself unable to follow up with their jokes or apprehend it. This sucks, seriously. And also, to 'live' with them, i have to constantly change my character to something similar to theirs, otherwise it's I myself again.

Family? Hate to ask myself this but do i have a complete family? Yea, they do give me allowance; they joke; they cook and they ask about my studies. But when i'm down and needs someone close to speak to, where are they? Huh, probably sleeping or even snoring away. I feel obliged to study and have to ignore my emotions all the time just because they are working really hard to earn a living. I AM a human and I DO have feelings. My dad, who i seldom talk to, treats money as everything. The care and concern he has for me is by giving my allowance every half a month. For all he cares is I'm still walking around the house alive and i bet he doesn't even know I'm studying in jc. Often, i find myself at the junction of deciding whether or not to share my problems with them. Home has seemingly became a place where i sleep, eat, study and none others. This is not about anger but disappointment. But well, forget it. Nothing i say will help solve problem.

I have good friends from secondary school but most of the time i feel sorry for them. I should admit that i have a weird personality and that has resulted in me abandoning friends when I'm upset. I'm sorry but i cant help having that kind of feeling. Sometimes, when i type a personal message into my msn i would usually ask myself if there's anyone who would even bother about it. Maybe I'm a workaholic, cant help having random emotions during free times. Ah! FORGET IT...

Tomorrow will be my goldfishes and I, meaning I'll be accompanying them the whole day.

This is a emo entry, don't bother if they don't feel like reading. But if you do spare a thought for me, i appreciate it. =)

Together, it seems..

Just for laughter...

2007-09-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

This is a piece of funny joke that worth taking time off to read =)

Sherlock Holmes and Dr Watson go on a camping trip. After eating their sandwiches and downing their grog, they lie down for the night, and go to sleep. A few hours later, Holmes wakes up and shakes his friend: 'Watson, look up and tell me what you see.'

'I see zillions and zillions of stars,' Watson replies.
'And what does that tell you?'
'Astronomically, it tells me that there are billions of galaxies and possibly billions of planets. Astrologically, I see Saturn is in Leo. Horologically, I deduce that the time is about 3.15am.'

'Theologically, I believe that God is an all-powerful creator. And meteorologically, I surmise tomorrow will be beautiful day. Why, what does it tell you, Holmes?'

Holmes reaches for his pipe in the dark, sticks it in his mouth, and mumbles: 'Someone has stolen our tent, Watson.'

Frustration!!

2007-08-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

As usual, nothing worth noting happened this week..

Woke up at 8.45am today and i believe it could be earlier if i didn't turn off the alarm clock =/ Oh well. Anyway, so i set off from house and took 945 from house to westmall. Went to the nearby POSB to feed my wallet and dropped by the coffeebean to get cy a ice mocha. When the counter person asked if i want cream to be added to it, i replied by asking her back, ' err..Will there be any additional charge for it?' She glanced at me and smiled. GOSH!! How could i have said that, it's so embrassing!! she must be think i'm so singaporean la! Nvm, it wouldn't have been any worser than getting scolded infront of the class by my DEAREST gp teacher. Argh, that bloody hell teacher, until now i still couldn't accept THAT as one of the reason why he blasted at me. Seriously, it's so different from secondary school teachers. The care and concern, where are they? Nvm, dont wish to talk about anymore.

Yup, went to cy's house to study but i realised that things couldn't get into my head. Probably it's because i'm not feeling well or maybe i'm not in the studying mood. Seriously, this week's schdule is really tight and i could hardly receive sufficient amount of rest. No, not much time left, promos are coming and i dont wanna retain or to go through re-examination. Let's get back to the topic, otherwise i'll be talking about world issues. haha. Alright, did few of my physics and maths tutorial questions and came to realised that it's important not to dream during lectures! Had my lunch in cy's house and i was overwhelmed by that shameless feeling. It's like i'm one who goes to ppl's house just to eat free food. You know, those kind of ppl who try to squeeze every tiny bits of good out of things. Still, i dont feel nice about myself. Err, just to let you guys know, i DO eat vegetables but not all kinds la. For example, saba-kakong vege and etc.. EXCEPT those crunchy-chewing veges, i seriously hate that kind of feeling when the teeth sank into that air-compact stem. YUCKS! I know it's mean to command but it's kinda weird when i opened the box and realised that it's filled with meats. LOL. Hrm. My jaws dropped open when i saw it, of cos la, didn't show it. Anyway, thanks for the lunch! =)

Left cy's house at around 7pm and insisted not to bring umbrella along because i was very sure that it wasn't going to rain. Er, why? It's simply because i dislike carrying umbrellas and i dont have the habit of borrowing things from others, especially things like, as mentioned, umbrella. Particularly for ppl like me who has short term memory always find it hard to return stuffs =) And believe it or not, among all things that i likely to misplace is umbrella. Thus before i could return it to the person, it's already out of sight =/ Luckily, it started raining only after i board the bus. Yup, SEE, i know the weather is by my side! Followed that, i went to bukit gombak to consult doc but only came to realise that the clinic will only be open from 9.30am-12.30pm. Gone, i'm dead, i told myself. ' Mum is going prescrible her very own-made medicine for me. Then, i continued my journey back home.

Guess that i've to make up the consultation tomorrow, Eek. My beautiful sunday morning where i can get enough sleep has vanished. Ohya, tuition tomorrow! Alright, got to rest now. As mentioned, i'm not feeling well, that's why =) Hasn't been doing something lately which i believed has attribute to my sickness and that is, drink water!! Haha, alright readers, i'll end off by advising you guys to take more water daily! Yup, kinda random one but it's beneficial! Haha. whatever!

Below are some of the photos i've taken lately. Enjoy!

Presenting to you the 07S22!!!

2007-08-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

Class photo behind the pool! =)

The guys in 07S22!! Err.. Civis tutor on the right..

Hate to say this but I'm in the photo. That unglum
thing which appeared out of nowhere...

JJ Escalator!!!

Applaues for you, Siva!! =D

For a moment i was wondering if she's suffocating...

School is starting tomorrow!! SHIT MAN! I missed my holidays terribly =( Argh, wish that i have a time machine! Sometimes, i really think that my bed needs more than 6 hours of my company but... hai.. couldn't help it.. NVM! Smile on! =DD

Harry potter and the order of phoenix

2007-08-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

TODAY, i witnessed an incident which happened in Jurong East MRT station. It was one of the, perhaps, the most heart-thumping action scene that i have ever encountered! Sipei's HANDPHONE fell from the third to the second storey. She was really lucky that the phone did not hit on anyone's head during that peak hour, otherwise she'll be jailed for injurying public members. However, surprisely, after falling from that great height and landing on concrete ground, her phone managed to survive through. In fact, besides some minor scatches, her phone is still in perfect working condition which then came to my knowing that old modern handphones can be really durable. It brings me to wonder, what if it is my phone? Seriously, my heart will go with it. FORTUNATELY, very fortunately, she wasn't holding my phone that time, otherwise you wont be seeing me blogging now, i will be aimlessly looking at the pieces of my handphone ._.

I will hereby express my sympathy to Sipei's current phone as well as the phone that she's going to have in the future.

Ohm...

Lols. Anyway, recently, i noticed that my patience level has been running low. It'll be best if you can keep your mouth shut when you see the artificial smile plastered on my face. Sometimes, i can't tolerate extremely lame jokes when my mood isn't good. Instead of laughing, i'll just smirk. With my results going downhill and school daily assignment being badly handled, i do expect you guys to show minimum understanding by keeping a distance away from me. Note this strictly, i never like people to comfort me.

Well, tomorrow is the first performance that i'm going to take part in band! This is not my very first time performing infront of the school so i wouldn't expect myself to be nervous. Maybe?Haha, we'll see tomorrow. The performace tomorrow reminds me of the times when i performed in TeckWhyeSec, during Chinese New Year, School opening, Chinese lantern festival and blah blah blah.. I hope i'll not screw up the whole ceremony. Haha, wish myself all the best!

Went to watch Harry Potter And The Order Of Phoenix with Sipei today. It is kind of outdated show because we've been dragging it for weeks due to tight schedule, but afterall, we did enjoyed the show, i believe? Haha. The thing about watching movies that you've once read before is that you always know what would happen next. YES, it may be super boring at times but it's good to refresh your memory, isn't it? For instance, i never knew how Hagrid's brother looks like until i see it on screen. Ohya! speaking of this, it takes some time for that giant to compreheld what hermione,harry and ron are saying. The part where three of them tried to take care of it and Hagrid being suspend from Hogwart was totally being cut out from the video! Ah! No wonder i hear bad comments about the show from people.

Hrmx. What else to add on? Er. I'll be released from school at 10am tomorrow and i have no idea what i where to go after that. Maybe i'll just go and sleep or maybe.. maybe i'll attend my band senior farewell party? Ah, no idea. Got to go off to practise flute now, Majulah Singapura and Honour Glory!

It's me always..

Finished

2007-08-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

Hey readers!
I've just finished my Common test today and i can simply tell you that i screwed all of them up. Why? I wasn't well-prepared, as simple as that. Actually I wasn't really bothered by it because i half-expected it to happen. I mean, honestly, which guy can really sit down and study without having time off for fun? Err, perhaps there is, but that's definitely not the case for me. Anyway, i had physics paper today. It was a KILLER, far worse than gp paper and believe it for not, i stepped out of the examination room without knowing that i've just took a physics paper. Seriously, i was like swearing 'what the F..' to almost every questions and i did nothing but starred at it. They asked questions that have a mixture of both areas, Pure Memory Work and Creativity. Creativity, yes! It was so hailarous when they changed the projectile question into a santa(that christmas guy in case you do not know) sliding down the roof top, and the reason being is that santa feels like having some fun after delivering present. That bloody story took up almost half of the question length and from that i can see how hard teachers try to change the question. Well, I didn't actually scribbled some workings on the tough questions, except for some.

I can't really tell how badly i did this time as for all i care is that i've tried my best. The best is yet to be! Haha, I'm going to work harder next time, let's treat it as a lesson for myself =) Hey readers, if anyone of you has final fantasy or high school musical (break free) piano score, can you kindly spare me a copy? Kind of piano mood recently, haha!

Alright! So that marks the end of common test! Now, let's start preparing for Promos! Oh, i'm going to perform for this coming school national day celebration. I hope they will allow me to participate in it? haha, i mean at least i know how to play the selected piece for national day. Talking about that, it's the pirates of the carribean that we are going to play. Lame right but that is one of the pieces that we have been practising on, again and again.

I'm meeting my friend, Jasmine, for breakfast tomorrow! Kinda looking forward to it though it's just a simple meal. haha. You may find it weird but i enjoy having breakfast, and i mean breakfast only, with friends. Ohya, this is very random but SiPei! Listen up! LOL. I'm free these few days, i can spare time to teach you piano! haha. Lao pei ah lao pei, so old already still wanna learn piano, can your crooked fingers withstand the stretch? lols =P

Stay Happy! =D

Derrel and me! =)

Another day in my life..

2007-07-28T02:06:00.000+08:00

A calorimeter, a piece of art.

Artificial map, wooden building, innocent trees...

Aww.. Life has been getting really hectic nowadays. Time spent on studies than bed has seriously got widen in difference. And guess what? I ended school at 6.15pm today and that totals up to 11hours of studying. Madness, isn't it? ar ha! that's not it, few of my friends actually suggested for night studies until 10pm! That was like, ' wow, are you serious?!' Oh, one observation here, for jc students, even if you're not busy, you will still have to make yourself look busy. From the look, we seem as if we're trying to uphold the name of jc and that is to be hardworking. However, from the inside, we seem dumb and paradoxical. Anyway, i always believe in quality studying and that is why i am willing to pay time off to sleep.

Hrmx. Went for the learning trip to URA few days ago. The trip is about some sort of urban development thingy and i seriously have no idea why we are visiting that place. Er but well, nonetheless we had fun together as a class =) We took class photos, went fooling around and had picnic in the bus. When we were there we saw this artificial 3-D map which made of tiny pieces of wood. In it, we can actually track down the place we stay and where the places we usually patronise. It's very cool isnt it? When we are about to head for next gallery, one the GP teacher mentioned,' Surprisingly no one tried looking for jj on the map ar..' LOL. That was like so funny la! Also, some of the jokers from my class went to pluck out the miniature trees from the map and threw it to some other parts of the map. Yea, super uncivilised you would say. Haha, never mind about that. Anyway, when we were about to leave we saw Zhong Qing, one of the chinese telecast actress, and we took photos with her. My class got so excited that we started shouting hello and waving our hands like as if we're drowning in water. It was Siva from my class who represented our school to ask for a photo from her. LOL. Honestly, i think my class is one of the madiest class that I've ever seen. It has got a mixture of different characters and personalities. However, there's one thing in common, childishness. Some times, when jokes turn into an insult, they would still laugh their heads off and direct the insult to somebody else. Haha.

Recently, there has been a wet weather. Kinda cool but when it comes to studying in air-con classrooms, it's freeze you to death. I think I'm really sick of air-cons environment that i got very reluctant to even switch on my air-con at night which i usually do. Er! I'm still waiting for the class jackets, it's been weeks since we last ordered. Anyway, i heard from the news that weather is getting weird nowadays so do put on more clothing when you leave your house!

I'm getting impatient

2007-07-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

Alright, i've just taken my Listening comprehension and I can seriously tell you that it sucks. Simply SUCKS. I screwed it up, i got my Qn 1 wrong and that is like 1% out of 100% of my overall Chinese Grade. Guess that I'm a HongKonger with a lousy Chinese standard afterall. Anyway, my GP is not any better too. So, I came to ask myself this question, 'What am I?' To speak the truth, I'm just piece of junk Perhaps i should have ended this prolonging pain 17 years ago when i had a high fever. Mrs Teo, sometimes I really wish you're there, not to teach me English but to talk to me.

One thing I realised about JC students is that they are arrogant. I'm serious about it and it flows in their blood.
XYZ: " Wow! Your school is really good lorrr! My school is seriously very stressful and i heard from my classmate who went to JJ saying that JJ is so much better than my school. "
Me: " Har? cool."
People, what do you see in these coded sentences?Yes, SARCASM! There's only two things i see in that conversation and that is 1) that person is trying to show how much his or her school does for his or her. 2) that person is seriously trying to show how lazy my school is and not even bothering about the students' results. I'm not being sensetive, I'm just stating facts. If that's not what the person is trying to say then i'm sorry, that is how i perceived it as. Therefore, if you think your school is so much better than mine, why aren't you scoring As? Ask yourself this.

Often, when JC students see questions from better schools, they will be discouraged and go on thinking that the question is going to be tough. BETTER school?! Rubbish, the term better school is just because they scored a few points higher than the others! So what if they're from Hwa Chong JC? Raffles JC? Will their question be more geuine than the rest? bullshit, that's not true. Hey, so JC students out that, dropped the habit of perceiving questions from better schools as harder questions. Furthermore, my tutor once said that good schools set questions that look tough but stupid.

JC students, first three months are over, i would suggest you guys to spend more time on getting good grades rather than showing off your own schools. Till then if you get good grades, it'll be alright to show your achievements and i'll applaud for you.

Readers, I'm sincerely sorry for those who i have offended. who knows, I might be representing one of the hundreds to speak their hearts out. Again, I am who i am and i speak for what i think should be spoken.

Another day in school...

2007-07-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

I'm in school blogging again. Err! Guess that I've to spend my life with the school's library computer since my home com is down.

My mum mentioned about relationships to me the other day and i find it quite true thus i want to jot that down. She said that a person's character can never change, it's just that he or she has not show the true colour. The true reflection of personality lies in the hand of time. Hence to sustain a relationship, a person should therefore 'be-himself' while engaging in a relation. What do you of think about that? Haha. However, it's always easy to say. A guy will forever trying to mend a girl's heart while she's down and aid her when she needs help. So when can he show his true self? Before he knew it, he has already fallen deep in love with the girl. Thus, showing his true self will only affect the relation. Ha! This is so complicated! Anyway, let's put that aside. We're too young for that.

Time to get serious with my studies, not much time left to my common test. Got to go already, another guy is waiting to use the computer and he's seriously affecting my mood of blogging. Eik! I believe the next time i blog will be centuries later.

This is the place where I found the best posture
of sleeping without letting the teachers know =)

A friend of mine trying to stuff a cat into his bag
and bring it to class =)

Hectic life..

2007-07-05T15:08:00.000+08:00

I'm school now. Having a chance to blog in the school's library is really cool because they're people who somehow glance on your blogging content. Argh, curious little Singaporean. Well, another reason why I'm blogging in school is because my computer is down. Actually i expected it to happen as I've been using it almost everyday. Frequent users get what he deserves, yup, that's what you call it.
Anyway, i received back my progress report slip yesterday and i was quite surprised that i didn't fail any of my subjects. Haha, probably it's because my AP points that pulled me up.
Chem- E
Phys- C
Maths-D
GP- D
Econ- A
Chi- A
Yup, I'm pretty disappointed with my Chemistry though i passed. To be honest, i did really put in a lot of effort but still couldn't grab hold the ability of answering well. Knowing the concepts is one thing, answering to the point is another. Poor me. Well, my Common test is coming soon, i hope i'll really put in my very best! Given that my computer is down, i believe I'll do better this time round. Haha!
Alright, got to go now. =)

Heart aching day

2007-06-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Mind you, I'm taking time off from my PW project to update my blog. First thing first, Project work sucks! I don't get why the examiners wanted to include PW in our A-levels syllabus. This simply a burden to our other subjects man! For example, my half done maths homework is still waiting for me on my study table, screaming for my name. Argh. If i don't complete it when the school starts, I'll be in serious trouble because my Active Participation points will be gone. Ha! That's what teachers in JC use to threaten students.

Today, as usual, i woke up late. I really enjoyed waking late as i know i won't get to do that during schooldays. I believe the coming term 3 will be a tough one for me because i seriously have to buck up for all my subjects! Some subjects like Chem, i did really horrible and i got only 9/30. Cool? I didn't really prepare for the test. Besides, I've got no time to do so. Anyway, i went to Jurong Point today to buy school bag. Err. In fact, i have this habit of getting bad tempered when i cant buy the bag that i wanted on the day itself. Indeed, i got really frustrated at the start because I've got a feeling that JP is bagless. Hrm, please consider the fact that I'm choosey. However, after patronising some of the sports shops there with my mum, i realised they do actually sell the kind of bags i wanted. Probably it may be because my taste is kinda typical? Haha. In the end, i bought this Mizuno bag which cost me 70 bucks but with a 20% discount, it only cost 56 bucks! Isn't that cool? ER. My mum subsidised me 40 bucks la. Haha, i really like the bag alot =)

Following, i went to Lot1 to purchase my spec. For you info, i broke my spec. NO, i didn't break it, it broke off because it rusted! What a lousy spec! Ha! Anyway, i saw this half frame spec which attracted my attention and with a 60% discount, it gave me a reason more to buy it. LOL. However, the disturbing thing here is, my eye degree has made its way up to a higher height again! it's 500 now! OMG. I'm going to be blind soon. My dream of being a pilot has totally vanished. Gone, gone, GONE! Mamamia. Yup, the spec cost me 234. For a moment, i thought the price sounds cool. 2,3 and 4, they're in sequence! cool isn't it?! haha. I don't think my parent can take this joke because they paid most of it. Compared to my previous spec, it really cost a bomb.

Opps, almost missed out something! I went to my friend's house to do PW today! We had fun because it wasn't really a very tensed discussion meeting. Believer it for not, we gambled after distributing our project task. We played poker cards and i lost quite some money. Haha. I cant believe my skill has deproved so much. I lost my bubble tea money to them! Why? Because i actually wanted to buy bubble after the meeting. Haha. Never mind about that =) Anyway, that's what made me think PW is not that bad after all.

Yup, School is starting next week and there's goes my June holiday. Hrm, did i enjoy my holidays? Er, i think i did.

Hey see, a cat trespassed my school and it's really adorable, it meowed at me when i wanted to take its photo. Lol, this surely reminded me of the video my friend shown on his phone about a guy thrashing a cat. =X

Myself

2007-06-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

Their hardwork will not be wasted, i want them to be proud of me.
I can do it! Never give up...
Happy birthday mummy =)